I LOVE you HAYES
I LOVE you HAYES
My Dear Son Hayes,

The pain of losing you is just unbearable but I know I must
try my best to give Bethany the wonderful life and
opportunities that Scott and I gave you. Each morning
and every night I pray to you and God to give me the strength
to get through another day! Some how I make it, but my heart
isn't there. My heart broke into a thousand pieces on Jan. 27,2002
and it will "NEVER" mend back. I don't know why God wanted you
but I want you back so badly. If it were true that parent could die
from grieving so much, I'd already be reunited with you. I KNOW
each and everyday, I'm at least a day closer to being with you again
and leaving all the pain behind. Hayes, you brought me so much
happiness and joy for 16 - 1/2 years and you were just taken away for
me in the blink of an eye. Oh how I just want to touch you, kiss you,
hug you, and hear your voice, if just for one last time.

This will be my 2nd Christmas without you and I haven't put a tree
up or decorated outside since you left. You and Scott always
complained because I wanted so many decorations outside in the lawn
and on the house.. You're probably looking down saying, "Damn, why
did she NOT want them when I was there"! I still laugh at remembering
you having to climb the ladder while Scott held it for you on top of
the roof so you could get the lights into the peaks of the house.
You hated that because you were so far up off the ground.

Hayes, as I try to get through another Christmas without you, PLEASE
send me some strength! I think back at our last Christmas together
in 2001. We had so much fun shopping for all your clothes at Ambercrombie.
Scott and I had already spent alot and then with you switching to a
private school at Christmas time, you and I had to sneak and do more
shopping together. I THANK God, for making our last Christmas together one
of best! All of the new clothes and that Ambercrombie coat you just had to
have is still hanging in your closet. I'll hold onto them until the day
I die! Hayes, always remember that I LOVE you so very much and I miss you
terribly. Merry Christmas HAYES!
Love, Mama



I LOVE you HAYES


I LOVE you HAYES

Hayes ~ Christmas 1986 ~


I LOVE you HAYES

Hayes ~ Christmas 1986 ~


I LOVE you HAYES

Hayes, Mama, & Bethany ~ Christmas 1990 ~


I LOVE you HAYES

Hayes ~ Christmas 2000 ~


I LOVE you HAYES

Hayes ~ Christmas 2003 ~


I LOVE you HAYES

Hayes ~ Christmas 2003 ~
I LOVE you HAYES
I LOVE you HAYES
Made with love by your mom, Beth


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I LOVE you HAYES




Christmas Without Me

Do tears blur the colors of Christmas lights
and carols make you sigh?
Are you saddened because it's Christmas
and I am not nearby?
Do you think of all the joyous times
we shared in seasons past?
Does the ache feeling overwhelming
seem like it will always last?

Please don't weep for me.
Know this Christmas is my best.
At this Christmas dinner
I'm seated with the honored guest
If the tears you cry are for you,
lonely without me today
to share this year's season,
then listen to what I say.

God's gift that first Christmas
was much more than His son.
He gave to us the promise
of eternal life for everyone.
Now that I've gone on and received
that promised gift of life,
I'm very much a part of
the Christmas spirit light.

I'm the angel sitting on top of
a decorated tree
And a simple Christmas carol
sung by a child so reverently.
I'm the Santa on the corner
standing and ringing his bell.
I'm in that Christmas Eve story
that you know so well.
I'm in every sight and sound
that brings people Christmas joy.
I'm a smile on the face of a child
who received a much loved toy.

Now that I'm part of the season
we loved and shared so much,
Close your eyes, think of me.
Reach out and feel my touch.
Please share in all the joy I'm feeling
being a part of Christmas cheer.
Look around and you'll find me.
Joyous Christmas, for I am near.

Used with permission by, Cheri' C. Bown


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